Mamarati

lately I have no will to do much else besides sleep. I don’t remember a pregnancy where I’ve been so completely exhausted before. Maybe it’s because I’m older. Makes me wonder in what other ways this pregnancy is going to be different than the others…

So far so good- no morning sickness.

I have a lot to say… so much, really- but it’s all trapped in my head. I don’t even know where to start and just the thought of getting everything out that I want to say makes me feel like taking a nap. Naps tend to turn into eight hour stretches of sleep, though… So I try not to even lay down unless I know I can make a real go of it.

Major news:

Dammit.

More later when I can sit with my eyes more open than not and devote some time to an entry…

well, Kim is about to go to the ER I think… so she’s gonna come get me and I’m gonna be at her house tonight and take care of the dogs in case she’s held up there and so on and so forth.

As always, I meant to get shit done today, and I got exactly not squat done.

I don’t know why I bother. I’m such a lazy creature…

well, Kim is coming to rescue me from Sheri’s house. Schools are closed again tomorrow which means I don’t have to work again. 2 days off. Can you imagine such a thing? Then next thing you know it’s going to be Friday already! Woohoooo!

I’m glad I’m going to be home for tomorrow’s confinement though. I can get a lot done and spend my downtime porting my old diary entries in here. I’ll be glad to have it all in one spot again and this place is feeling a lot like home.

I’ve said that before, though.

Anyway… more later after I’m back home…

It is the strangest thing I have with milk, I have to drink it before the expiration date, otherwise I feel so bad.

D is home. At long last. It has been a long couple of days. Jacob’s surgery went well, and his eye looks real good. The doctor looked at it this morning and said so too. He was out of the hospital pretty quickly afterward, and has only shown a little bit of crankiness.
Well, we ARE moving out of state. Joy. I just can’t wait. NOT!!!!! I so dread this move. I hate it I hate it I hate it.
But, as long as I am with D, I guess I really don’t care. MY family is all that matters now. I need to keep that in focus. I don’t need a city to make me happy. I don’t need my sister or father to make me happy (not that they ever could). I don’t need Kim to make me happy (although she always does). I can maintain all those relationships whether I am here or not. I can’t be happy when there are bill collectors all over my ass day and night however, and this move might be the end of that. Wouldn’t that be nice?
It’ll never happen. Bill collectors will probably still call me after I am dead.