Mamarati

some days not.

Today- not.

I woke up very early this morning, and usually when I do that I end up getting some stuff around the house done.

This morning, however, I just feel in a funk.

Maybe it’s because I know I have things that I need to do… I need to turn in my move-out notice over here. I need to call and get the fax number for medical records from my ER visit a while back. I need to reschedule my OB appointment on the 19th to some other day, but I never can find the field trip calendar when it’s on my mind to call. I need to call the nurse back to find out about my progesterone levels. I need to clean the truck out. I need to finish cleaning the house. I need to write my father and tell him that I’m not coming because, conveniently, I have to be here to get Jacob when his dad drops him off which would conflict with the times of the party. I need to do lesson plan stuff for the week after next. I need to call the bank and dispute a charge on my card. I need to order checks since I’ve been out for months. I need to pay bills. Other stuff I need to do that I’m not thinking of at the moment, but there’s enough of it to keep me busy for a while.

Instead, I just wanted to lay and sleep, but I couldn’t even do that. Now it’s too late. I’m going to come home and be even more tired, and won’t do anything tonight either. I’m in that tired mode again, where I just feel so lethargic and want to stop moving and thinking and just lay. It’s only Wednesday (right?) and I just want to take a day off already so I can get some sleep… not that I slept bad last night, I didn’t… I went to bed around 10pm or so and slept till 6:something.

Maybe there’s some baby stuff going on in there that’s causing me to be so tired. Major growth or whatever… I don’t know.

I just wish I could wake up and have some energy right now.