Mamarati

I need a change in strategy here for parenting.

I really do.

It’s not that things are bad right now… They really aren’t. Jacob is doing well in school and we’re fine…

But it’s me.

And he is starting to cross into this… independent place. I can see it. It’s funny, though. On the one hand he does things that remind me of a 2-year-old, and the next he’s showing maturity more his age or beyond. He’s still got some of the little kid in him, but it’s vanishing quickly.

So, I need to allow this transition to take place and I need to be the calm one around here.

I know this because I did it before and it worked. I had some happy days in there.

Keyword being I.

ME.

I did it before because I’d read this book and I got all fired up. It was ScreamFree Parenting.

Truly one of the best books I’ve ever read with very sound logic and it’s like every page is a lightbulb moment for me.

Then there’s bridging the gap between practice and theory. I didn’t do so well putting it into practice. I mean, I did. For a while. But then I stopped.

So I’ve got to start again.

Because I need to focus on me and Jacob needs to focus on Jacob. I’m about to be very busy with school and work. And I want to be able to focus on those things because they are important to the future of this family. To ME.

So, I’m reading it again.

And I’m starting again.

New Year.

New habits. Old habits going away. Fresh start. All that stuff… good things.

Very good things…