Mamarati

So, I’ve been trying to figure out culprits in my diet that are making me feel like shit. I have already figured out coffee which was a very sad realization, but now that I’ve eliminated that, I’m still having problems with something. I think it’s chocolate or milk.

I eliminated chocolate the last two go arounds. I was completely off the diet when I went back to Oklahoma, so that was nearly a full cycle. But this is what I ate when I was away:

• 3 pieces of cantaloupe
• 1 piece of lettuce that tasted odd so I spit it out
• Some chicken noodle thing
• tea
• peanut butter cookies (about 5)
• 2 bloody marys
• King’s Hawaiian Rolls (3)
• Izze Blackberry drink

That was over like 3 1/2 days. It was very odd. Because I was surrounded by food. You know how it is when someone dies. You just get inundated with food. Well, people know how big our family is, so there was just tons of food. Every day, more and more of it.

So it was strange to be in the midst of that, and yet nothing looked appealing to me. It was like my mind was just tainted against all of it. Everything all mixed up together and in big aluminum trays or casserole dishes… I had no idea what was in anything. I knew I wasn’t going to be able to stay completely on the rotation, but I was going to try to stay as close as I could. Once I got there, I had no idea that my body and mind would align and do it for me. It wasn’t like I even had to put up any will to not eat things because nothing looked good.

I’m sure emotion had something to do with it as well. When I’m uncomfortable emotionally or having sad kind of stress I never want to eat. Everything loses its luster.

At any rate, I avoided both chocolate and milk. Dinner last night started Day 1 on the diet, which is milk day. I had a glass and a half and made alfredo. About 30 minutes after dinner and after I’d been feeling fine all day I came down with what was nearly a migraine. Today I woke up feeling better, but then had a little bit of milk with oatmeal and as I was driving Jacob to school another migraine set in.

I came home and got in bed and didn’t get out till nearly 11am. What the hell?

So, it may be both milk and chocolate, but I know that it’s milk for sure now.

And I’m so sad about that. But it’s just like the allergist was saying… too much of a good thing. I’ve had milk every day since I was probably about 15 years old. I guess my body has decided that enough is enough.

I really wish I’d known, being the allergy-prone person that I am, that this is how these food allergies get started. I would have made some major changes years ago. I would have started the world of food for Jacob in a completely different way…

Speaking of which, it’s time to pick him up at school and take him to get his weekly allergy shot. Bleh.